I Still Don’t Know

I have been away from this space for quite a while.  There has been changes in my health that needed attention.  There is uncertainty whether there are further traditional medical interventions that are available. Having to face this has been a segment of the journey of Life that should be shared.  The decisions, facing death in a real way, what plans are in place and the general foraging for my personal truths along the way.  I want to share one of these truths with you now.

Back in 2017 when I was first diagnosed with stage four metastatic breast cancer, the about of available living was very much in question.  I had made the decision not to have traditional chemotherapy.  Other treatment options were not approved because I was not deemed curable.  It was a chronic, life shortening situation.  Yet, here I am in my eighth year of living.  Now again with some very prominent conditions that truly can be life shortening.  Yet, I Am Alive.  the Truth is that, at least in my belief system,  we really don't now when it is our time to die.  All those years ago, I was gifted the words, "I Live Until I Live Eternally,"

After 7 complete years of living.... I still don't know when or quite frankly how I am going to die.

So the lesson is.... I am really grateful that I didn't spend a whole lot of time worrying about it.

For everything there is a season. Now is the time of planning the transition into Living Eternally but just not quite yet.